Pasquini? Yes.

upon me yet another prophecy was bestowed
gods best work placed cleanly at my tattered feet
these blessed wings upon my back, I am now all powerful
in control of my own fate, holding the reigns of my own death's steed
the simple instinct of man is all that may hold me back
now not even my own conscience accompanies me into the hallowed flame
alone I stagger towards an end, though inevitable, that only I can create
though the broken blades of woe may cut my flesh
but only the release of death will extinguish my spark

Hatred for what once was mine
now what is falsified
defined by what was once empathised
Godless, now heartless
All knowing but non-caring
now you see
it's time to be it
chase what your eyes see
but has your soul seen
the reality which would have been

continue to play my solemn song
fearing only what that controls me
featuring only my fear
one can only survive who he is
what saves me to survive?
instincts, the will to live
are they the will to die?
I still have a day
a day to be consumed
eternally eternally
fires everywhere
it all burns
the world is ashes
an inspiring hell
I wish no longer

All you feel is
Nothing left
You're just a pile of bones
Tremble in the face
The face of death
Feel my love
Feel my hate
Feel my breath
Feel your fate
Can you hear it
Hear the silence
Breath in the blackness
Fear my love
Fear my hate
Fear my breath
Fear your fate
Design you destruction
Embrace the sin
Capture the ending
Close the book

And THAT my friends, is what it's like to be hated for everything you really are
Every time I move I do it I end up pulling my own trigger
Death at hand my own demise because he's the buzz-kill of the century
Should have let go when I had the chance but now no way
It's because you're the only one sober enough to see it
Alright to get high but why when you need it to get bye
Who ever thought that they wouldn't ever get through
Not without the disease makes them who they are

I can really go from on a high horse to dead in the water in a second. I'm sick of being invisible... I'm sick of not being respected and I'm sick of people not understanding why I'm sick of it. I'm sick of everything.

Rather than type this story 1000000000 times this week I'll just put it here

I went to Blacksburg on Saturday to hang with my cousin. I got there and what's the first thing we decided to do? Drink. We went to the pool and downed a 12 pack of Corona's with lime. I had 6 there then I had a bud light at Rhondie's house (resident Asian).

Early Drink - Drink Count                                       7 beers

Left there and went to Buffalo Wild Wings, had a few wings and went back to the room to change for the night.

Me and my cousin decided we would go to a place called Sharkey's. It's a Rib and Wing place that lets in under 21's just not to drink. I sat down at the table and the guy came to check all the IDs. Everyone handed him IDs and I handed him my REAL ID and he just goes "Sweet, a new ID" and stamps both my hands. Sweet.
As it turns out over 21 licenses in VA are horizontal but under 21s are vertical. I had NO idea, I expected to be drinking coke all night. SO, I'd say I had 11 beers there, 4 shots and a Jaggerbomb (Jaggermeister in a Red Bull).

Mid Drink - Drink Count                                         18 Beers, 5 shots 1 red bull

After that some girl named Courtney drove me and my cousin back to his appartment. My cousin is even more drunk than I am I.E. he can barely walk. He looks around at all of us and goes "Do ya'll hear that?"
(nobody hears anything)
"There's a party at the ATL house!"
We went over there (walked around 100 yards) and there were 4 people making NO noise drinking Jungle Juice (Purple Jesus). I had 2 or 3 cups of that. I ended up walking back to Andrew's Neighbor's house and drinking 2 more beers and playing Super Smash Brothers on 64 for a while.

End Drink - Drink Count                                       20 Beers, 5 Shots, 3 Purple Jesus, 1 red bull

Great night. I went to bed at 4:30 woke up at 9:30, no prompt, no hangover, not drunk. My cousin had a horrible headache... I'm a lucky guy.

Anyways, that's my weekend story. I never lost my perception of reality or lost control of myself. I hate it when people become idiots when they're drunk.

1. Do you still talk to the person you lost your virginity to?
Yep

2. Is it harder to be rejected or to reject someone else?
reject someone else

3. What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school?
Classic Rock (I was strange)

4. What is the best thing about your current job?
The not getting payed part rocks. Voulenteering FTW!

5. Do you wish cell phone etiquette was a required class?
sure

6. What's the last thing you drank?
Sweet tea


7. Have you been on a date in the past week?
not exactly

8. Where are you going on your next vacation?
Alabama

9. Have you ever thrown up from working out?
I've thrown up at LAX practice. Otherwise, no.

10. Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
kinda semi old.

11. Have you ever gotten so wasted you didn’t know what was going on?
nope. Next post will adress that, though.

12. Do you like orange juice with the pulp?
No

13. Are you touchy-feely?
yep.

14. Did you cry at your high school graduation?


15. Do you prefer the tanning bed or the sun?
Just shoot me now

16. What are two of your favorite places to eat?
Angelo's and Zaxby'sl

17. What could you tolerate...someone who snores or a sleep walker?
snorer

18. Do you consider yourself bipolar?
No

19. What's something your friends make fun of you for?
Being fat

22. Would you ever parachute off of a plane?
Sure

23. Have you ever ridden an elephant?
Yep

24. Are you itaLian in any way?
I'm a straight up Gangsta, and the real type too.

25. Have you ever ridden in a U-Haul?
Yea

26. Do you like to play Scrabble?
Occasionally

27. Have you ever been to a nude beach?
no

28. Have you ever drank Jack Daniels straight?
yes

29. Have you ever had sex on the beach?
nah

30. What are you saving your money up for right now?
a new set of high hats for my drumset.

31. What was the last gift card you received?
Guitar Center

32. Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
yes

33. Does the number of people a person has slept with affect your opinion of them?
no.

34. Have you ever gone to a party where you were the only sober person?
yes

35. What do you do when you spot a bug in your house?
depends on the bug. If it's a spider I'll scream like a girl.

Every day you get up you look around and see how much more the world has gone to hell since you went to sleep. I see burning building, wrecked cars, people killing people. I see death but worse than that, I see the ever living. I see the empty shells of people who have no purpose, people surviving only for the purpose of not dying. Sad really, your true fears stare you right in the face every day but you don't know it. I fear dying the same way I was born, with my eyes closed to what there is to know. Hold what you can learn close to your hearts, my pretties. One day you'll understand what's befallen me. Death is but a passage by which we can finally escape the hells we've all created.

The world is only so much brighter when you wake up beside someone you love.

Better look around before you say you don't care
Shut your fucking mouth 'bout the length of my hair
How would you survive
If you were alive
Shitty little person?

That's great stuff right there, my friends.

I made it easy, figure out what that's from. m

Mainly for you people who are bored

First, I'm purchasing a new interior tomorrow, pure black leather sport interior. $300 out the door. I'm happy with that
Second, new drum heads tomorrow, I've needed those since the second day I had the kit
Fourth, I hate everyone except for you, person who is reading this, and everyone you know or have ever heard of, I like you and them.
Fifth, I made my first drum video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S_7R5N5A7Xw
Sixth, What happened to third?

Drink life like hot chocolate.

Spit hot fire if you must

I live I live I live
Tora Tora Tora
For the Alamo
Check your fire boys

because we can only lose what we've already got...
...if we are too scared to risk it

It's when you've left everything you have in one place. An experience gone, a day gone, some people gone.
You've all had wonderful conversations. it's just like you don't want to be one thing but you really are.
You are just as beautiful as you think you can be.
You are the greatest person alive and you have but to believe. It's not all bullshit, it's a state of mind. It's a true shame hat it took me 17 years to truly realize that I control the better part of my daily life.

I would ask, is it luck? Do I run across just who I need to meet every day for a real reason? it's because I must to live. At any one point of time, that blade of grass could be cut, could be in a different place.

COULD THINGS EVER REALLY TASTE AS PURPLE AS THEY ALL SEEM? perhaps.

It's all a matter of the mind, or is it what's the matter with the mind. Mindlessly mingling with the subtle inconsistencies of what we see. Is it what we've heard? Do we ever really make all of the noise we need to, or are we all just too quiet for our own good?

Let's all land on stable ground.

A-G, all the letters of the alphabet, it's all the same, just different vibrations. All good in their own way.

We all open up our cans and drink to what we've got in life. nobody is different and everyone's not the same

Go to sleep my children. Let the hells we've all created take hold so that we can forget the heaven we once dreamed of. That hell you've created is perfection, it's all just what it is. hell is but a word and our minds are but tools manipulated too easily by petty emotions and unfortunatley too rarely rely on instinct.



What am I to say
when life is so soon to fade away
you learn you live you enter the fray
it's when the colors suddenly all turn gray
you realize that life is all just a ray

Growing up... what a term.
It's very interesting watching people around me doing what they think makes them adult. Some people do drugs some people try to be what they aren't and some people just try to make it day by day. What do you guys think it means to grow up? Is it a certain event, a realization, or is it progressive experience? Hell, is ANYONE grown up? Who is an example of a good adult. If ANYONE says Ghandi or Mother Teresa I will personally shit kick you. They were good people, yes, but that's not what I'm looking for. I want tangible real people. Post up then I'll throw in my ten cents.

So, I was over at my friends house and I was talking to his dad about religion, not by my choice because I prefer to stay on peoples good side, and he told me that the only reason I would be whatever religion I am because of my father. Now, I have NEVER talked to my dad about religion before in my life. In all honesty we've just never brought it up. Anyways, that's beside the point. He's pretty straight flat christian middle of the road. Now I love this guy, he's really taken care of me for the last few years, but I never realized how fundamentalist he was. But he said one thing that really got to me. He told me that I was crazy for believing in Aliens or extra terrestrials. Why is that? Anyone else have any thoughts? What are your views on Extra Terrestrial life?

happiness in sanity
life in love with what's unknown
sanctity and security
all under a false velour

sick and dying
the millions smile
all lead to believe
that tomorrow is bright
when night is all we know

is this the day
we are left to know
tied and bound
we seek truth
in  the sadomy of life

Condemned
we are born dead
but alive in spite
crying all along
a hollow good bye
to our one and only
happy day

Considering how todays religions work, it's most likely that all of us are going to hell, so all I really want to do is hold the door. What's the big deal now. This mainly regards Christianity; but what I notice is that when I look around and I see all these people saying "Look at what I believe" "Christianity is cool!" "Satan is the one influencing you to look at religions other than Christianity" and my personal favorite "Repent, the end is near". This is not to say that other religions aren't the same way, such as: this Muslim guy on the internet the other day who wanted me to become a Muslim. Not that I have anything against Muslims, it's just kinda like: Why do I care? I'm on the internet, I'm not looking for religious propaganda, save it for someone who can't decide on things for themselves.  Anyways, returning to the whole everyone goes to hell thing: I love to have fun and do whatever I might happen to want at any given time so really; would a God honestly give us free will if he was going to punishing us for using it as we pleased? Just a thought.

I have a new Ride cymbal and new High Hats.
The high hats are Stagg 14" Black Metal High hats and the ride is a Dream 20" Crash Ride, a very thin Ride. Beautiful cymbals
I'm still using my old Zildjian ZBT Crash.